hey there, whatcha doin'? I haven't been around in a while... Been workin'. Sweatin' the small stuff, you know. Gonna start bloggin' again b/c I have all kinds of stuff running around in my head that needs to get sorted out and organized. I need a place to just say stuff while I'm thinking it through, and you know this old blog is just me sayin' stuff.
Turns out that the things I do to make myself feel good, feel better, survive, get through the day, feel happy, save time, save money, give more to others... it's making me sick. I feel worse, I'm barely getting through the days, I'm sometimes extremely unhappy, broke, busy, taking away from my experience w/ others. Not to go all super-drama, but I'm killing myself slowly. You know all the space on the BMI scale past "obese"? Past morbid? Apparently there's a think called super-morbidly obese. And I'm there, man. I'm there.
If you were to ask me, about any other destructive, dangerous habit, I would say "no way, I don't do that!" I'm not a smoker, an alcoholic, a daredevil, I don't party, I wear my seat belt. And I eat. And now I'm ugly and sick and I hit rock bottom. And I love myself and my family too much for that, and I'm comin' back.