Sunday, May 11, 2008

A Gift of Not Being Mom?

Argh, I thought I scheduled this to post Sunday. Oh well, here it is a little late...

I've given some thought to what I want for Mother's Day. Snuggling in bed, going out to dinner and a walk in the park/zoo are at the top of this list. But they aren't the only things that have crossed my mind.

At 4:30 this morning, while Deuce was nursing and I was in a happy stupor from having slept 6 straight hours, I thought to myself "wouldn't it be nice to not get up during the night for Mother's Day?" It wasn't until I was up for the day at 6:30 that I realized what that meant. Nursing is our special time, and I know it's limited. He's already down to 2-3 sessions per day. I feel so much love for him while I'm holding him in my arms in the wee hours of the morning, feeding his tiny body and holding him close.

So why would it be a gift to give that up?

I'm not the only mom who would like a day off from being Mom once in a while. It's not a reflection on our families, and it's not an indictment of our partners. It's just that being Mom is a lot of work, and most of us are tired. Not sick and tired. Just sleepy.

But imagine it. A whole day with no midnight feedings, no crying on the changing table, no emptying the diaper pail. No wiping food off the kitchen floor while on hands and knees in work clothes. No pulled hair, no broken necklaces, no doctor appointments to make.

No hugs, no kisses, no little bird stretching up to share a bite of food. No head rested under a chin, no toothless grin. No tiny soft clothes, in the laundry basket or under the couch.

For Mother's Day, I want to be a mom, even if it does mean broken sleep. Who needs sleep anyhow?

1 comment:

bookwoman said...

Sleep is totally overrated. At least that's what the cats tell me when they take over the pillows at 3AM.