Monday, March 17, 2008

I have to believe...

... that there is a reason for everything that is happening at my job right now.

... that I'm just being oversensitive to the wasted time and hypocracy that I've been dealing with for four years now and that I'm noticing more now because I'm trying to leave.

... that none of the attitude I'm catching is personal. It's the same stuff that goes on since before I ever worked here.

... that I still have marketable skills despite the fact that my career has withered while working here.

... that I still have the intelligence and confidence I walked in here with despite four years of some people here trying to make me feel small.

... that my job situation will change soon.

... that I can walk out with my head held high and behave like an adult and a professional who is simply moving on to a better opportunity.

This is going to be a crazy week. I have a phone interview, Deuce has his 9 month checkup and vaccinations, DeuceDad has a face-to-face interview, and we're hosting Easter. I get to go into survival mode, one day - sometimes hour - at a time, which is how I perform best. After the pressure is off I typically have a minor breakdown, but we'll deal with that next week.

But seriously, to get through the next 7 days I just have to accept that while there are some negative and stressful things happening, there are so many more wonderful, fun, great things happening that deserve my energy and attention.

Oh, and happy St. Patrick's Day!


Marketing Mama said...

Wow, Sounds like a tough spot to be in, and I've been there before, too. Hang in there, you are right about going into survival mode. You do what you need to do to get through it - and you can cry or breakdown later after you have a moment to catch your breath. One foot in front of the other!

By the way, I just noticed you have a link to my blog <---- and I'm so excited - my heart just skipped a beat when I saw it. Thanks! I'm off to link to your site, too. :)

bookwoman said...

Good luck. And know that there are lots of us who can sympathize. You know, it's a shame we don't live nearer to one another. We could have one heck of a Stitch 'n' B@tch.

The Mad Crocheter said...

What a dreadful, dreadful job. Here's to getting out and on to something better. Just remember, they're trying to make you feel little, but you know they're insignificant, which makes you the winner!